++ whn a person doesn't like u or is mean to u,
it has got more to do with them
than it does with u.
u cannot be loved by everyone,
bcos not everyone can love themselves.
hence, the greatest gift u can give to others
is to love urself.
if u can do that,
u can love others
without worrying whether they'll love u back.
u'll have enough love for both of u. ++

**jst wna say..ta all my loved ones: family n fwens..u guys muzz know tt i'll alws love u!! -hugzz-** thks fer evthg u guys gave me. i appreciate n treasure all of u who hv stepped into my life n made a difference. showering me w love n care. can nv thk god enuf fer wat ive in life. as someone said today.."i'm jst glad ive shoes ta wear, food ta eat n books ta study..." [haha courtesy of jeremy!! hye brother..jst quoting a few words frm u hope u dnt mind. but i TOTALLY agree w u on this! =) ]

ur NEVER happiee u know y?? cos ur so self centered..so unloving..sighh i dnt knw how can u lead sucha pathetic life. criticise evryone..even our fwens. they r OUR fwens mind u!!!! ur jealous cos we've fwens n u only hv tt pathetic few!! i pity u but ur aint helpg urself. evthg u do irks me.

i can go on n on..cos im FUMING right now. wat a sad sister ive. i miss my dearrie JAMIE!!! whn will u be cumg baq?? i cant take it anymore. im so lyk gg ta erupt n explode soon. this yr w/o u has been nthg but a nitemare. she targets me for evthg..ive ta bear n receive wateva damn thg she shoots at me for the past yr n still countg. how long more can i tolerate?? ive no idea. sumone pls help me. sighh

ta *another u* wat ur doing n alws been doing rli disgust me. evthg u say is fake. u try ta hurt evryone. try ta mk evryone turn agst each other. ta mk urself be the "gd person". sighh grow up will u?? stop mkg life difficult for my fwens n me. wats mkg u act this way?? i wna know..cos i believe tt no matter how bad a person is there's alws a concrete reason behind evthg they do. i wna know abt urs. but it'll be too difficult a task i think. ur too complicated for me. too cunning n despicable i guess. sighh. u mk our lives sad ta live in. get a life!!!!

*seriously im not one bit ready ta compete agst such evil forces. im still growing up in an environment tt majority r older than me n hv more life experience than me. i know now tt pple r no longer simple. some r outta get u. trust shld no longer b established so easily. sumxs im jst so sick n tired. the world..i hate the real u.* --i dntwna grow up.

ta *nick bro* thks fer callg ta talk ta me. i'll be okie i hope. thks fer evthg..taking care of me. hugz

o wells this wk flew by as usual. my grandaunt passed awae. busy w her funeral n sch n fantab n helpg out at nick's new pl. hye bro nice pl uve got. hahs my frequent hangout pl frm now. thks fer talkg ta mi yday. i treasure this love btw us. loveu!! ta my grandaunt: i'll miss u. rest in peace. sighh its heartbreakg ta c granduncle wept n tear non stop. they loved each other so much. they're such loveable pple. but life's nt foreva..n i told myself i'll treasure all my loved ones..family, fwens all the same. i'll hold each n evry one of u guys in my heart. i love all of u. granduncle..b strong. we're all here for u stil. sighh..second relative left me this yr. i hate e feelg of losing my loved ones. shan't tk anthg for granted n shall treasure evry min spent w my angels.

sthg pissed me off real bad todayy. the thot of u cheatg ur own mother's money irks me ta the core!!! wat nerve did u hv?? heartless bastard!!! i respected u so muchh..but u betrayed tt n nw ur a TOTALLL LOSERRR!! she dotes on u the most but ur oso the one who hurt her the deepest. i saw her teared..her heart muz b shattered. how can u do this ta ur mom?? she loved u so much. sighh..im so disappointed in u. i luk DWN on u!!! where's the love?? e times whn u were in trouble w the debtors,.who insisted on helpg u thou we asked her not to?? who knelt dwn ta beg them ta let u off whn u appear ta hv nowhere else ta run. who was all along by ur side whn evryone gave up on u?? its ur mom!!!! ur 60+ MOTHER u bastard!! sheesh...jst go ta hell will u?? ugly pple lyk u mks this world lose its meaning.

ta lynette sweetest: thks fer talkg,encouraging n listeng ta me on weds..thou we hvnt seen each other for lyk 5mths..i feel tt i can rli open up ta u. great time..great company. love u lots.

ta *yings babe* wat my sis said rli scared me. but as u said we're both leadg our own lives rite now. it'll tk time getg use ta not-so-frequent outgs n calls..but wat matter most is tt deep dwn our hearts there is each other in dere n we know deep dwn we'll be bestest fwens forever!! no matter how far apart we r we'll alws be the bestest of buddies!!! iloveu dearie..kip ur promise eh..aft ur exams is OUR time!!!!*cheers* muahh

sighh..why are there alws some pple who try ta b jerks n hurt pple lyk us who r only seekg fer true fwens? why r there alws motives behind evthg u do?? pretendg n covering up ur trueself is tiring. aint it? then y do uve ta do tt? y cant u jst enjoy the simplicity of fwenships?? it'll be so much happier than u r rite now.stop hurtg my fwens n pple lyk u wun end up anywhere no matter how hard u try. at the end of the day..do uve real fwens ard? pple who u can rli rely n lean on? love frm fwens n family has no substitutes..u can claim now tt u dnt nid it but eventually one day u'll find urself so miserable on the "no man's" island. cos u may hv evthg else but lacking the most essential thg in life called LOVE. i wun let u hurt my fwens..so jst back off..there's stil time ta change. not evthg we do muz hv a motive behind it. real n simple love conquers evthg. u'll b happier too. stop inflictg pain on my fwens n seek help ta urs.ur trueself will prevail one day no matter how hard u try ta hide. at the end of the day..there can only b one loser..tt will be u. pls change will u?

superficial talks irks me ta the core. in SIM there r so many of these gg on. im tired of them all. superficial pple are all ard. they mk me sick. they try ta b AA but often they r those tt r CMI kind. o wells who bothers abt them? they're jst mkg a fool outta themselves. wat matters ta me r those who r real n worth my care, concern n love. jst ta name a few.. sherry babe, aveline dear, jas, mandyy, jennifer, adr, jer, xuex, bernie, jan, jaq, junz, viv, qo, karms, ming, alex, small sherry, karen (both) margaret swts,ruiting-i miss u ger- n many more..thks ta each n evry one of u whom mk my life so colourful n meaningful. ive learnt alot frm u guys n i can nv thk u all enuf. love all of u!!hugs

o wells its lyk one entry per wk now.life's hectic n im tryg hard ta catch up. nowadays ventg my anger n sorrows by playg bball or badminton. thks charms, suezzie, fenxx, qinggxx n jessie fer being my pillars of life hahs love u gers. well my pulled calf muscle is finally getg well aft 2wks. hahs my calf got so swollened n all tt my parents almost fainted whn they saw my leg. well i pulled it almost 2wks ago but i didnt care thinkg it'll go awae so i ignored it n carry on getg involve in bball n badminton. think finally it cldnt cope n gave me a "i had enuf" call. thurs nite aft a short session of badminton..my calf was hurtg lyk real bad.it was as hard as a rock!!serious!! not joking. can ask jas ta check.hahs..my lovely daddy gave me his painkiller hoping the pain n swellg wld go away.guess wat?? nxt morn i woke up...my eyes were bloody swollened!!!! greeeaaattt...now nt only leg but oso eyes kena. im allergic ta the painkiller. darn!! had ta show my ugly self in sch. o wells..it was rli a horrible exp. had difficuly concentrating durg ibm. urghh..went ta e doc n now im better. not fully recovered but betta.hahs..whn's e nxt session of bball gurls?? =)

*mon* the opening of fantab!! finally...aft approx a mth of preparations its opened!!! elaine scared the hell outta jeremy,weekiong n me in the morn abt the keys.hahs sorrie guys tt i made u all panic..not my fault..its our beloved AUNTY ELAINE's ignorance. sales tt day was ok considering our type of gds. stayed the whole day. didnt wna go hm...avoidg hm. *groans* went hm w cal n yc. dead tired.

*weds* had maths..it was fun. w junz, jan, karen n cal crapping the whole way thru..time flew by. sadly..jaq cant join us. hope ur totally well alr dearie. ohh n we've got a new name fer junz...its *lulu* hahs..jan came out w tt. n she concluded tt cal has the "kong" face -his surname- n eugene has the eugene face. wateva. see we got so bored during maths tt we've got ta entertain ourselves w silly games. but they're a bunch of sweeties. luv their company. aft tt..went ta wtch "New Police Story" w margaret swts n cal..silly guy wtch the movie twice. hahs guess he was bored. den he told me wats gg ta happen during sum parts of the show..hahs qte glad he didnt tell me the twists or i'll definately kill him!!hahs..hye cal rli lyk the pierced ear ehsss..now u luk as adr said "slightly older" :)

*thurs* went ta the store ta help out aft econs lect. knew tt sherry swts has gotta leave early tt day cos of lessons den poor mandy wld b alone..so i went ta acc her..hye mandyyy fwen enuf not? hahs..toked ta her..gotta know each other better. hye ger..hope u rem wat uve said n told me hahs. anw thks fer listening ta me. rli treasure our fwenship. aft tt went ta mt suezzie for movie..Wimbledon..okie movie..worth $6.50 tts all i can say. Kirsten Durst is hotttt!!

*fri* ibm was lyk war zone..reminded me of Mrs Tian's lesson way baq in sec daes. nageb is so intimidating..had YEN meetg n went for movie w jennifer n cal. adr met his fwen n he left us. hye adr muz join us nxt time k!! white chicks was funny. a rli gd type of movie whn ur all stressed up n nid sum winding dwn ta do. but it was forgettable i muz say. worth $6.50.

*sat n sun* went out w charms n fenxx ta hv lunch. went suntec ta chill..found out more abt u..sighh..move on dearrr..im not holdg u baq..i dnt wish ta. stopp this torture fer both of us will u? its enuff..a new life is wat both of us nid. yes..imissu. chilled w the two "bimbos" till ard nine..came baq ta catch eng's match. becks scored. gd match. sun was spent w family. they complained tt im not spendg enuf time at hm w them. its getting on my nerves. stop all those pressurizing will u? sighh..walked ard tampines ta luk fer shoes which my sis wanted ta get. aft tt came hm fer my lucy darlingg.

well..its been a busy wk.now u know wat i meant by packing up my daes so tt i wun hv a single bit of free time ta sit now n think. im happier...m i?? fwens r driftg...i guess. but im gg ta try my best ta hold on. but sumxs whn trying too hard can backfire..i know all abt this thg call "backfire"..experienced it too many times..till deres phobia. nw jst gotta lie back n let others tk the initiative. i hv had enuf. anw..

to *adr* hye bro..hope thgs r better for u alr. is ur rainbow out??
to *mandy* hye ger dnt fret..ur prob is solved.no one's gg ta mk u sad anymore. uve us ta mk u laugh. so get ready fer this ride.
to *sha darlx* hye babe..u cant b dere fer me all the time.its heartwarmg enuf ta kw tt u care. cant wait ta c u. iloveu sweetie. hugs.
to *yings babyy* feel so drifted frm u..i dnt wna the same thg which happened ta me 3yrs ago ta happen agn..i thot u dnt care anymore. glad uve took the initiative ta msn me. u knew i wasnt happy w u..glad thgs r better now. jst needed sum attention i guess. thks babe. iloveu!!
"ur alws top of my priority list still as eva..." tts rli swt..needed tt..thks angel!! muahh
to *astee babe* miss u swts!!! hugsss..muzzzzz go out soon!!!luvya
to *avelinedearie* sweetheart..wat u wrote on ur blog made me wna tear. its been hard fer both of us..but rli..we've got ta stand by each other n share these sorrows tog.not let u carry all our burdens..we're hurting but believe me..it'll be jst fine cos there's me standg by u n u standg by me. we'll overcome all odds tog!!muahh iloveuuuuu darrie!!
to *cal* hye sista!! hahs..rli glad ta hv known u. nv fail ta mk me laugh thou its alws the lamest jokes tt u mk. luv ur company too..hahs my neoprint partner alongside jennifer. hahs..may our fwenship strengthen.oh my soccer fwen too hahs..
to *amandadear* woahh ger miss u man!!!study hard k..luvya tonnes!!tkcr..